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Friday, June 21, 2013

A LECTURER


Dua tiga hari lalu, aku ada emel pensyarah pensyarah aku.
Saja saja. Sengaja.
Nak ucapkan terima kasihku. hehe
They are my strong supporters, so they deserved my appreciation.

But, one of them replied me..

assalamualaykum wrt. wbt.

Alhamdulillah,

I wish you scored A. ur carry marks is high, but you didnt hit it for the compulsory question.

after all, the questions were easy (wat d u tink?) so, many of ur friends scored high too, it was so stiff competition.

i ended up wt 55.4% of you getting A and A- (22 students).

it was the most toughest grading i ever did as many of you have  high carry marks.

in your case, i cant afford to add gracefully even 1 mark because it will be unfair to many whose marks were also at the  border
of A and A-.

I guess there is hikmah in that....sorry if it is far from your expectation.

I wish you all the best dear in your undertakings, and please keep in touch.

wassalam

Hmm. Tak tergambar perasaan aku. Tak terbalas lagi emel Dr. ni.
Sebenarnya, saya dalam keadaan redha yang amat!
A solid bukanlah segalanya.


Aku faham, Dr. takut aku kecewa sebab carry mark untuk markah ni adalah 56/60. So aku kena dapatkan 29/40 (sekurang-kurangnya) untuk dapatkan A.
I did my best.
My lecturer was doing her best to mark my paper.
Dah termaktub tak ada rezeki. Nak buat macam mana kan?


Sayang Dr. ni.
She does not need to explain. :')

Terharu sangat.

May Allah bless you forever. T__T




Wednesday, June 19, 2013

THANKFUL!


Dear blog,
Yesterday I was so happy. keke ^^

Eh gediknya ayat penulisan.
Lempang karang.

Tapi betul, aku happy semalam. HAHA
Haaa, ni baru betul gaya menulis daddy's daughter. :P
Kena gangster gangster.
Aww. cutenya aku. Gangster angat. Ptuih. :D

Semalam keluar result!
hehe

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah
Finally, Dean's List in my hand.
Thank you Najwa Suhaili Md Zin.
Without your own effort, your dream won't be achieved.
Akhirnya penat lelah terbayar akhirnya.
Smile widely.

Tapi usaha aku seorang tak bermakna jugak tanpa doa kalian kalian kalian.
Betul, usaha kita je memang tak cukup.
Pertolongan Tuhan, (doa, usaha & tawakal itu wajib ada)
Dorongan ibu bapa (usaha kita setanding usaha mereka) -doa dan lain2-
Dokongan para pensyarah..
Sokongan padu rakan taulan.
They never let me down.
:')

Kalau saya tersungkur, mereka hulurkan tangan ringankan beban. (Aww, slogan Bersamamu TV3 shangaaattt) ahaha

Kalau saya hampir rebah, they pulled me out.

Bagi keyakinan. Bagi harapan.
I am so lucky to have good friends around me. :)

Wish you have 2 or 3 as well.
One is not enough.
At least for my case.

Able to get
Four A minus.
One  B plus.

Anyway, if you are a new reader here, and this entry may sound inappropriate to your eyes, please apologize eh :)

Sambung sambung.


Basically, for Clinical Psys, Experimental Psyc, Methods of Da'wah and Organizational Psyc, I got A minuses (?) HAHA
Betul ke nih grammar nihh.

The B plus is for Islamic Aqidah.

So.. Not bad? Not good?

Apa apa jelah. Baguslah. Malam sebelum exam I did expecting A for each paper. Honestly.
Haha
Nothing is impossible right?

However.
During the waiting moments for the results being announced,
I rendahkan harapan serendah rendahnya.

I was expecting to get only 2,3 A minuses. and 2 B pluses.
:]

Belajar dari sem lepas lah ni.
Usaha tak seberapa. Expectation lebih. Puihhh.

Apa apa pun. Alhamdulillah.
I have tried for 3 semesters to get DL.
But only now Allah gives. :')
It's worth of trying.
Allah tak akan bagi apa yang kita mahu. Dia bagi apa yang kita perlu.


Lesson learnt!

Bila kita cuba cuba cuba cuba dan terus mencuba tanpa henti.
Saat itulah kita hargai apa ada.
Nak dapat DL bukan mudah.
Tapi tidak juga mustahil.
:D

I made myself proud.
I wanted to see my parents, and my bestfriends happy.

Aku nak kamu semua tahu, aku bukan cakap kosong.
Kata kata aku diisi dengan usaha dan perbuatan.
Thank you for lending your ears and shoulders to lean on, peeps.

Hanya Allah boleh balas jasa uols semua.
Kalau bukan di dunia, akhirat juga.
Doa ni untuk adik beradik juga.
It's hard to see their supportiveness, tapi dari jauh ada.
I can sense it. :P
Well, I am a future Psychologist, remember?
hehe


p/s: The juniors (especially) asking about my grades. Kak Wawa A eh? A eh?
Kengkadang, aku tak tahu macam mana mereka pandang aku?
Am I a genius? Or do I look like another Sigmund Freud in Psychology? HAHAHA


Janganlah camtu. I is normal.
I tak begitu pandai.
Bodoh tu memang pasti. hehe









Tuesday, June 18, 2013

DAH LAMA

Lamaaaa betul aku cari. hehe

Buku Puisi Tepi Jalan, by Fynn Jamal.

I do follow her facebook, and I like her way of thinking.

Sangat menepati citarasa.
So it is my rezeki.

Went to Annexe Gallery at Central Market. (Pasar Seni)
I love this place.
Sebab tempat ni pelik.
I love the pelik pelik one. heheh

Abah tanya, ramai ke pergi?
And I said. No.

Abah told me. Alah, Malaysians, kalau tempat buku, mana nak pergi.
Somehow, I do agree on this issue.

Abah added some.

Kalau yang pesta heboh heboh memang ramai pergi.

I lagilah setuju.
:D


After buying books, Noreha (my friend) and I went for some drinks. 

Old Town White Coffe. 
Ngeteh? 
No lah. 
Ngecendol & Ngekopi. 
Hahaha

Taste tua sangat. 

Kalau ada ramai kawan yang begini, lagi best sebenarnya.
I do like to go to have 'ngeteh' or ngeKopi or whatever you call them please ask me to join
in, together with you. 

But please, please no chatime and etc. 
Tak berapa minatlah. 



Hehehe First time naik sampai Annexe Gallery. 

best lah Pasar Seni ni. Best! 



Aku rasa old school sangat bila dapat pergi event macam ni.
The book fest was very undergound. 

See?

 Tak banyak pun stall. Sikit je.

Tak sampai 20 gerai (?)
Bukan gerai pun. Buka meja, barang tak seberapa.

Thanks Nini Nadira for inviting me.

Kalau tak tak terjumpa lah buku pelik pelik.
Alhamdulillah. :)

 Tengok lagi.
Lif dekat Pasar Seni?
Seni habis T_T

Kadangkala, kalau kita pergi tempat yang pelik, luar dari kebiasaan memang best. :D
I like. I like.

Aku kalau mampu, nak cari future husband *ehem ehem.
Yang boleh kongsi hobi. Hobi tak perlulah sama.
Bang, yang penting kau kena adventure okay.
Kau kena kurus dan tough tapi. Aku je boleh gemuk seorang.
Hahaha

Sorry, dah grad ni macam menyampah sikit kan perbuatan aku? :P

Lalalala
I do not care.




 15th June, 2013.
Right after attending Shafiq Bahagia's Wedding.





For everything You give me, Hamdan Lillah. 

You tak pernah kecewakan aku.
Maybe rezeki yang besar besar You tak bagi.
Tapi yang sekecil kecil yang aku tak boleh nak agak dari mana puncanya, selalu ada.

Thanks Allah. 

My heart beats really fast. 

Result will be announced on 19th June 2013. 

12am. 





Hoi, debar hoi!

Monday, June 17, 2013

UNTITLED

What is happening? Asked Twitter.

And I replied: " I iz pening"

Why? I asked myself again.

Motivasi untuk apply for sponsorship dah datang balik.
Maybe sebab result final exam dah nak keluar.

I have no other reason.
But I do not know.
Still blur.

Banyak quotes yang aku baca.

Antaranya:

Plan for your future because that is where you are going to spend the rest of your  life.
Plan for your future. Put trust in HIM and let things fall into place.

Kalau aku postpone, tak bermaksud ak tak percaya Tuhan kan?
It means I have to settle few things before I move on.
Settling other things also means I am moving on. :)


BismIllahitawakkaltu'ala Allah. Lahawlawaquwwata illa bIllah. :")


Saturday, June 15, 2013

JATUH SAKIT


Baru sahaja sebentar tadi dapat perkhabaran berita, kurang enak tentang murabbi (read: pendidik) aku jatuh sakit.

Dua orang post sambil tag namanya.
Dah kenapa macam tu? rasanya masa tinggalkan beliau time exam haritu beliau sihat riang gembira.

So, aku drop by one private message in my friend's FB. Tanya khabar berita sakit apa.
Si kawan (lelaki) ni cakap, better aku mesej murabbi sendiri.
Tak enak hati aku.

Bukan tak nak tanya. Tapi orang tu sakit.

Tapi aku gagahkan diri jugaklah untuk tanya sebab curiosity tahap dewa.

Allahu Allah.
Sir balas mesej. :')

Dia cakap, saya ada heart coronary disease Najwa. ;""(
Sedihnya.

Jauh di sudut hati, aku doakan Sir selamat.
Panjangkanlah umur sir. Sayang dekat dia.

Walaupun suka bahan aku dalam kelas, I rela okay. Rela :')


If he is warded, nak pergi melawat.
Mohon rakan pembaca doakan sama ya.



Tabahlah murabbi, sebagaimana tabahnya Nabi Ayub diduga Allah.




Wednesday, June 12, 2013

11-14 MAC 2013


Minggu ni betul betul penat.
Kejar lecturer untuk dapatkan pendapat pasal sambung study luar and dalam.

Thanks Dr(s).
Sudi luangkan masa.

Berlari ke sana sini. Fikir pasal scholarship MARA.
Jumpa link apply, 12hb Mac.
Tarikh tutup 14 Mac.
InsyaAllah ada rezeki kita dapat.

Sekarang pening tengah fikir pasal duit nak buat iELTS/ TOEFL.

p/s: sakit bahu, pinggang dan kepala.

Have to settle my personals, my groupmates, my assignments.

Patutlah kita ada 4 lobes dekat brain.

Memang patut. Alhamdulillah.


RHB, AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT A BANK.


Today, I wanna talk about a RHB. 
Not about a bank. 
But a good friend of mine. 
She is Rina Hazwani Bohari. 
Dekat bawah ni, bukan dia, tapi gambar penulis. (aww. panggil diri sendiri penulis) 

Geli taw dengar :P


Kelihatan matang sekarang. 
--' 


Zoom In. 



She is my adik actually. Sebab dia muda setahun dengan saya.
Eh apasal tukar ganti diri saya. Selalunya aku je. haha

Sambung cerita.

Latar belakang kitorang sama sebab kami ni datangnya dari UIAM cawangan Kuantan.
Dari Kursus Sains Matematik berubah ke Sains Kemanusiaan.
Maybe manusia itu memang lebih dekat dengan jiwa, bukan Matematik yang disangka. :)



Hubungan persahabatan kitorang ni nak kata lama, tak lah lama. Baru saja. Dalam 4 tahun camtu.
Kalau ikut alam rumahtangga, 4 tahun ni kira saat genting lah untuk kenal pasangan masing masing luar dan dalam.

Asal jauh nau bunyi dia kan. HAHAHA
Rumah tangga dan persahabatan (?)

But, knowing me, readers..
You guys faham kan?
Tak faham diam. HAHAHA

Adakalanya, tautan kasih dua sahabat ni diduga.
Dan benda tu datang secara tak sedar.
Mungkin kedua dua pihak tak tahu secara langsung. Tapi kadang kadang aku tahu.

Kalau tak faham karangan ni, tak mengapa.
Ni bahasa Psikologi nama dia. :P




Mungkin sebab kita ni ada kekangan jarak dengan kawan yang lain, itu yang rapat.
Kalau nak diikutkan, tak pernah rapat masa matriks dan Kuantan. Jarang tegur. Bukan jarang saja, malah memang jarang yang sangat sangat.

Tapi malas lah cerita dari A to Z apasal rapat ni kan. hehe
Panjang cerita, letih nak menaip.

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On 8th of June, we went out together, celebrating our Merdeka Day. :D

As graduates from IIUM. After 3 and half years (her) and 4 years struggling, surviving in this
challenge course.
Only Allah knows how much we suffered. :')
Thanks for being with Kakak, dear.
Especially this semester. When Kak Durra is no longer in IIUM.
I really need someone to be by my side.
All best friends already graduated and I am all alone.
Yeah, basically, our stories are same.

We need each other.
We push and pull each other, at the right timing.

Thank you.
For giving me HOPE, ADVISES (even though I am your Kakak)..
Selagi kita bergelar manusia, selagi itulah kesilapan akan diulang.
Thank you for everything! Guiding me to apply Masters program in UK.
Kita tak tahu limit kita selagi kita tak paksa diri.
Thanks a lot.
You will be one of my very important persons in my life.
InsyaAllah.

Kemana hala tuju kita lepas ni, (kemungkinan besar berbeza) tak apa.
Sebab half of my spirit already given to you.
If I may not be able to go with you to ehem ehem..
My do'a is always be with you darling! :D

You can share anything with me. Your happiness and sadness.
I'll be there. BiiznIllah.






All pics were taken after watching movie. A psycho movie, by Nik Amir (the director), and my handsome ex boyfriend (acah je) REDZA MINHAT. Oi handsome oi!

Dah tengok wayang, cuci mata tengok baju. So perempuans :D


p/s: I love you!.


CAFFEINE


Cuti baru je mula.
Baru sangat.
But, guess what?

I miss to check my gmail account. Like seriously. For every single day.
Terbiasa. :')
Macam mana ya nak kurangkan yang tak terbiasa ni?
Ke tak payah?

I do check my FB, GMAIL frequently. Very frequently.
2,3,4 and 5 times per day.
Ini bukan addicted sangat.
Sebab runsing ada perkara penting masuk inbox. Giteeww

Ni yang aku risau ni. Sampai bila menganggur ni. kikiki.
People, I am a happy jobless now. Reti?
I am unofficially graduated. Alhamdulillah :")
After long years awaiting for finishing my first degree (yes, planning for my second and thrid degree), finally
I MADE IT!! Yeah!!

Rindu UIA. The asma al-husna melody in the morning. Sem ni lah paling selalu dengar sebab bangun awal teheee.
Sem lepas lepas kurang kesedaran sedikit. :P
Tapi bukan lah kesedaran banyak sangat semester ni.
Cuma ada banyaaaakkkk hal perlu diuruskan. Macam hal Masters. Hal kerja.
Benda remeh yang perlukan perhatian.
Including groupmates. (muntah hijau)

Yup, IIUM is like a caffeine to me. Semua yang terkandung di dalamnya. I am addicted to IIUM.


Counting days, for no reason. hehe





Saturday, June 8, 2013

SILENCE

I am super sad today.

Super duper sad, like one or two month before.

Akhirnya dia bersuara.
It is better for me to stay in Malaysia.
He wants me to be on graduation day.
He wants to put my pic on the wall.
He wants me to be an author, a lecturer.

Of course.
You are my daddy.

UK, I'll go to you next time.
Korea too. :')


cry






TERABUR


Bukan barang yang berterabur.
Tapi emosi.
Jiwa raga.

Sometimes, I do think that, my siblings DO NOT need to update what has been written here to the real life.
Or even readers.

May be, knowing something that is rare about me,
could be my thoughts, behaviors and feelings are something so precious (?)
makes you feel good (?)

I just share what I want to share.
No need to tell anybody outside.

If the outsiders want to know, let them read Daddy's Daughter.
You read this and spread the news.

Tak comel ah.

Kebarangkalian aku berfikir yang aku ni Diva pastilah besar.
Maka, janganlah.

Yes, you can share. Tapi senyap senyap ahh.
Kadang kadang, terpinga pinga aku orang cakap pasal benda yang aku cakap dalam blog (could be anything) depan muka, atas muka aku.

But, yeah. You guys ada mulut.

But yeah. This is my life.
Kau mengumpat dulu seguni dua, then cuba decide untuk menentukan hala tuju aku di mana.
Not nice, bukan?